"write about the depravity of the human condition"

The killed him on the table. Metal tables, dentist trays, even stethoscopes, things designed to save people's lives. All metal in hospitals is cold, it retains the cold, it is the cold. The coldness of death, perhaps. Blue lips, a loss of color in the cheeks. Even though the table he laid upon had a cushion, it was cold. They killed him on the table.

There was metal and plastic everywhere. Blades, tubes, wires, plugs, tongs, tweezers, tools, and needles. Electricity pulsed across the screen, and through the machine except for the line, long and lean. His chest lay open, a cavernous chest split apart and cracked. They went to work on him, fusing his organic flesh and blood and life with their metal and plastic and electricity. And then they killed him on the table.

Mind you, the machine is man made and so is the man, I know, made by a man and a woman to be natural, warm-blooded and alive. Was he made with faults, though? Are we humans flawed? Is it enough for us to be killed or kill ourseves? Nevermind our moral upsets and mistakes, although the soul and body are connected, and we do not have a soul, we are one soul with a body but I'll need a new pen for that image. Nevermind that the soul of the man they killed on the table was flawed by his own actions and that of Adam. His heart was flawed. It wasn't strong enough. And so they killed him on the table.

It doesn't seem fair that a man not only has to worry about the condition and the health of his soul, when we are all so soiled to begin with and it's not our fault. No, we have to worry about our bodies, bodies that are forms we live in but cannot always control, and we carry organs we cannot touch or maintain with a socket wrench or car wax or a piano tuner. The man they killed couldn't open his own chest and floss the plaque from his arteries or pick up a toothpick on his way out of a restaurant after eating a savory, saucy steak with dripping fat, and pick out the blockages like he wouldn't lettuce from his canines. It doesn't seem fair that this poor man should suffer coldly for that which he could not hardly help.

The killed him on the table.

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The Wailin' Jennys - "Beautiful Dawn"


Take me to the breaking of a beautiful dawn
Take me to the place where we come from
Take me to the end so I can see the start
There's only one way to mend a broken heart

Take me to the place where I don't feel so small
Take me where I don't need to stand so tall
Take me to the edge so I can fall apart
There's only one way to mend a broken heart

Take me where love isn't up for sale
Take me where our hearts are not so frail
Take me where the fire still owns its spark
There's only one way to mend a broken heart

Teach me how to see when I close my eyes
Teach me to forgive and to apologize
Show me how to love in the darkest dark
There's only one way to mend a broken heart

Take me where the angels are close at hand
Take me where the ocean meets the sky and the land
Show me to the wisdom of the evening star
There's only one way to mend a broken heart

Take me to the place where I feel no shame
Take me where the courage doesn't need a name
Learning how to cry is the hardest part
There's only one way to mend a broken heart

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"Exodus"
» Bethany Dillon
Come, come fallen ones
Dance in the healing stream
He has faithfully kept you
Brought you out of captivity

Rejoice, rejoice with all your hearts
Sing Him a new song
That’s heard high on the windswept mountains
It will resound

Lead, Lord, with unfailing love
Those that You have ransomed
And we will sing out as we go on
Our God is faithful
Our God is faithful

Reflect, reflect on all your days
You weren’t so free then
Once you were all called slaves
But now, blessed children

Move, move your feet
Dance before the Lord
On to the Promised Land
On to your reward, sing

Lead, Lord, with unfailing love
Those that You have ransomed
And we will sing out as we go on
Our God is faithful
Our God is faithful

Our enemies are at the bottom of the sea, our enemies
Our enemies are at the bottom of the sea, our enemies

Lead, Lord, with unfailing love
Those that You have ransomed
And we will sing out as we go on
Our God is faithful
Lead, Lord, with unfailing love
Those that You have ransomed
And we will sing out as we go on
Our God is faithful
Our God is faithful
Our God is faithful (our God is faithful)
Our God is faithful